It's interesting how sometimes your friends know you better than you know yourself.... This weekend Adrian was busy with work on Saturday night and I could just picture a major binge happening if I didn't stay away from my house. After a great horseback ride with my mom (the first ride since my surgery!! Wahooo!!), I met up with some friends for sushi. I got this really tasty, banana roll that had eel and you guessed it- banana! It was like a desert roll and DELICIOUS. So glad a friend suggested, and that I have been converted to sushi and the deliciousness it offers :)
After dinner, we headed over to a friend's place for some games. Before we got started, I was sharing with Jen all the crap that's been loading on me lately. I can't talk about it on here because of confidentiality, but it's really been causing me added stress. And then I just can't seem to stop thinking about what happened in Boston and how screwed up it is. If coverage is on tv I get sucked in BAD, so I've been trying not to even watch tv. But Jen nailed it on the head exactly what I couldn't quite put words to before- these runners, who run the Boston marathon, who were so tragically affected by this tragedy.....they are my "heroes." They are people I look up to on a real level, not just some fictional character from far away or in a comic book. It's been a goal of mine for at least a year to complete a marathon. The idea of competing at Boston is a huge dream of mine....to be that good to qualify to get there- wow!! Definitely something I look up to and admire to all those that accomplish that goal of competing in Boston. So, it just hit me harder than I would have thought because it's just too close to home, too close to a dream.
Having said that, I have never felt stronger before that I WANT to run Boston. Even if it takes me 20 years, I WILL run Boston. Because I'm a fighter. When I struggle, I don't just take it laying down. I stand up and fight against people or things that are trying to hold me- just like the people in Boston. I run for Boston.